From: Elizabeth Swift
My eating disorders of gluttony and anorexia began at age nine. When my attempts at perfection did not tame my criminally insane, alcoholic, abusive mother, I turned to food (primarily candy and breads) to console my burning rage, grief, frustration, helplessness, and fractured soul.
At age 13, at 85 pounds, I went on my first diet, which consisted of only yogurt for 10 days. I couldn’t eat it for the next 30 years. When I was a high school senior I suffered depression as I struggled choosing a university and major. At 5’3” I ballooned from 113 to 155 pounds. At class reunions, three decades later, I still have classmates remind me, “Remember when you ate six chocolate-frosted, custard-filled donuts with a quart of milk?” Of course I do. Interestingly, I don’t get sick and never feel “full.” I ate when I was bored, lonely, anxious, invited to events, celebrated a special occasion, was given free food (I hate to waste), or was showing off (I can out-eat anyone).
In the late ‘90s I stumbled across Gwen Shamblin’s “Weigh Down” and “Rise Above.” She focused on repentance of worshipping the idol of food. Captured by this truth, I returned to 108 pounds without dieting!
After a 20-year marriage, I ached due to a painful divorce wherein I also idolized my husband. When feelings of being heartbroken, lost, sad, angry, hopeless, worthless, unloved, and forgotten again set in, I resorted to food to save me. So ashamed, and back up to 148 pounds, I couldn’t even zip my dress for my son’s wedding.
With one-half the American population overweight and nearly one-third obese (20-percent over a healthy weight for your height), it seems an entire generation has been consumed with greed and over-indulgence (not just me).
I pray to let go of my 101 food rules, stop dieting forever, and regain some sense of a balanced relationship with food. Plain and simple: to only eat when I sense a true, physical hunger (not emotional or spiritual). You’d think after 40 years of bondage I would simply give up, but rereading this nutritionist author’s books has given me a glimmer of renewed hope. Please pray for me as I seek a final freedom from the slavery of compulsive eating.
Anyone struggling with any type of destructive addiction (alcohol, smoking, pornography, etc.) might benefit from Gwen’s counsel.
Have a great 2018 everyone!